I feel like my past 5 posts have started with the same thing, making excuses for where I’ve been.
And you wanna know something?
There shouldn’t be excuses. I have time. Massive amounts of time. And you know what I do during that time?
You’ll find me going out 4 nights a week. You’ll find me slacking. You’ll find me saying I’m a content creator when have of the time I’m not creating anything and haven’t uploaded or posted in 5 months. You’ll find me making empty promises of three posts a week.
But I’m feeling lost. I had this glorious idea for a blog. I thought my life was going great. I got into college. I was content creating. I thought I was on track.
You’ll find me now, a semester into college with $2 in my bank account because I don’t have the desire to work or even leave my bed all the time.
You’ll see half ass projects that I turned in for my major that could have been ten times better.
You’ll find my style, drive, vocabulary, and desires to succeed have all change because of one thing I thought was going to be good for me.
I’m not happy at an actual college. I’m a right brained person at a school with left brain people.
So why haven’t I been posting? Because my blog after all is about happiness. But I’m not happy right now. I feel I have no room to preach anything about bettering yourself and being happy when I can’t even do that for myself.
I plan on transferring. I plan on bettering myself. It’s just going to take time. But that’s what 2018 is for.