Dear An Abusive Ex,
I refused to let anyone touch me for six months after we ended things. I didn’t even let my mom hug me. I can tell you exactly when I was when I told my mom why I didn’t like to be hugged anymore.
If you read my previous posts April Happiness you would know my boyfriend got deployed. Before he left he told me he wanted to make a list of all things we should do between the time he comes back and I move to Pennsylvania for college in August. The list is not only things I want to do with him but goals for me as well!
1. Have a picnic
2. Go canoeing
3. Go camping
4. Minimize my closet
5. Reach 500 subs on YouTube
6. Finish NCIS
7. Reach 200 followers on my blog
8. Go to my local botanical garden
9. Go back to my aunts
10. Go to at least one new state
11. Go hiking
12. Go to my local food truck festival
13. Go to art shows
14. Get my license
15. Finish two large art projects
16. Try as many different cultures foods as possible
17. Find and love 10 new vegan recipes
18. Get mentally prepared for college
19. Go to 2 new thrift stores
20. Start a garden
I will probably end up adding to this list. It’s only some ideas for me! Feel free to comment what your goals are or things I could add to my list!
I’ve decided that at the beginning of every month I’m going to make a list of things that made me happy in the previous month. I did something similar on my YouTube channel when I was first starting out except it was my favorites of the month.
I hope doing this will help me remember happy things instead of reflecting on the bad. I also hope that it can help my readers think of happy events in their life too!
1. Celebration of Excellence
Every year at my school a staff member nominates one student for an award. Instead of based on academics or sports this award is for students with character, passion, and drive to do better. My art teacher nominated me and it truly made me happy.
2. My First Check From YouTube
I’ve had a YouTube channel for about two years. I’ve been feeling stuck because I feel like I’m not growing. But this month I received my first check from doing something on YouTube, something I love and am passionate about, and I’m truly happy.
I went to my senior prom. Even though I dislike school events it was fun getting ready and feeling beautiful, and I was truly happy.
4. College Orientation
I got my schedule for my first semester of college, met my roommate and was truly happy and excited.
5. My Boyfriend’s Birthday
My boyfriend turned 20! Unfortunately the day after his birthday he left for deployment but we still had fun. I made him open when letters and he loved them and seeing him happy makes me happy!